Post by Cam Pyetr on Jan 1, 2023 20:52:04 GMT -5
@alinore
Cam felt sweat trickling down his sides, a nervous prickle at the back of his neck. Moments ago, patriotism had burned like sweet cider going down his throat, but his stomach burbled with uncertainty. He felt out of his depth in the castle, like a country fool who'd been brought to the city and couldn't stop gaping at paved streets and buildings two stories tall. So much was happening in Nevermere that he had no idea of out in his secluded post, that he had no part in. He had arrived in the city bursting with pride to have been invited to the open court, and that pride had been displaced by wonder, making room for fresh news, new faces, new threats--and with it all the faintest thrum of fear.
But the immediate source of his sweating was the fact that he was being an absolute creep at the moment and didn't have a way to prevent it.
He'd spotted Alinore Thornhill in the great courtroom and lost track of the official conversation from on stage for a long minute as his thoughts lingered on her. They were the same age, or close enough, and had competed through the same circles growing up, so of course he'd heard of her promotion to Minister of Foreign Affairs. He had itched with jealousy to hear of her posting in Arryn Frey, a country that seemed to him in desperate need of the firm hand he had shown himself capable of using while running the Beldam Facility. Why had she been chosen for the position over him? Did she even know about Beldam? Surely she would approve of the order he brought to the unruly traitors of their people, perhaps even want to learn some of his techniques for controlling magical dissidents . . . but if she'd been out of the country, away from the highest levels of society that knew of its ignoble existence, maybe she didn't even know about it. Maybe she didn't know he existed at all.
His thoughts flew so thick and heavy that he found himself following her after court. Part of him knew he should simply stop, turn around, and walk the other direction, but he couldn't even tear his gaze away. She was like a stalking leopard, strutting around, power on display without deference. Fifteen feet behind her, his ambition warring with admiration, Cam's hungry eyes dragged him after her.
Cam felt sweat trickling down his sides, a nervous prickle at the back of his neck. Moments ago, patriotism had burned like sweet cider going down his throat, but his stomach burbled with uncertainty. He felt out of his depth in the castle, like a country fool who'd been brought to the city and couldn't stop gaping at paved streets and buildings two stories tall. So much was happening in Nevermere that he had no idea of out in his secluded post, that he had no part in. He had arrived in the city bursting with pride to have been invited to the open court, and that pride had been displaced by wonder, making room for fresh news, new faces, new threats--and with it all the faintest thrum of fear.
But the immediate source of his sweating was the fact that he was being an absolute creep at the moment and didn't have a way to prevent it.
He'd spotted Alinore Thornhill in the great courtroom and lost track of the official conversation from on stage for a long minute as his thoughts lingered on her. They were the same age, or close enough, and had competed through the same circles growing up, so of course he'd heard of her promotion to Minister of Foreign Affairs. He had itched with jealousy to hear of her posting in Arryn Frey, a country that seemed to him in desperate need of the firm hand he had shown himself capable of using while running the Beldam Facility. Why had she been chosen for the position over him? Did she even know about Beldam? Surely she would approve of the order he brought to the unruly traitors of their people, perhaps even want to learn some of his techniques for controlling magical dissidents . . . but if she'd been out of the country, away from the highest levels of society that knew of its ignoble existence, maybe she didn't even know about it. Maybe she didn't know he existed at all.
His thoughts flew so thick and heavy that he found himself following her after court. Part of him knew he should simply stop, turn around, and walk the other direction, but he couldn't even tear his gaze away. She was like a stalking leopard, strutting around, power on display without deference. Fifteen feet behind her, his ambition warring with admiration, Cam's hungry eyes dragged him after her.