Zarha have been feeling strange for the past couple of days and she was late, and she was getting worried. She told Kaalim Cyrilson to be careful, however, she remembers the signs from seeing her mother and helping her neighbors. She can't do this, she was unmarried, she not long told Hadrian about here ability to summon wings and now this. She can't be pregnant, not now. She doesn't know how she going to go through with this. She can't lose this job, when she has younger siblings to look after. 

Zarha doesn't have a back up plan if she was to loose this job. She could possible go back to Coheed, Kaalim will possible look after his baby. But she is a solider, she won't be happy living in Coheed, maybe for a bit, however, Nevermere is her home. She know it is too risky to make the potion because it is against the law. However, she could... she can say something to explain but make sure that the blame is on somebody else and not her. As she did have relationship with somebody else and then left so if anything come out of it... it is a possibility. Zarha hopes that the commander trust her enough that he believes her. 

However she need to let out some anger so she went out to the valley and made sure nobody is around and summoned her wings, she flew around for roughly an hour to calm down then find somebody to talk to.